May 27, 2011

The Kingdom of God is within you

... Christ will come to you
and impart his consolation to you
if you prepare a worthy dwelling
for Him in your heart.

All true glory and beauty is within
and there He delights to dwell
He often visits the spiritual man
and hold sweet discourse with him
granting him refreshing grace
great peace
and friendship exceeding all expectation.

Come then, faithful soul,
prepare your heart
for your Divine Spouse
that He may deign to come to you
and dwell with you.

- dear Thomas a Kempis
consoles and encourages again...

But then I ask
how do I clean my heart now?
and petition Him
telling him of my trips and failures

"Lord,
I start the day
great expectations
great resolve
but this headache
how do I get over this speedbump?

Describe it:

the head fills
the body so heavy
mess and filth all around
the job started...

Finally,
at the end of the day
it is enough that the dishes are cleared
the room is tidied
and the head reels
at all that is undone
self-criticism pounds the head
the leg is sore, the eyes blur
and the heart a watery stone

So, prepare a place for Me.
You are the last I want to see!
so ashamed I have let you down
fall into temptation so quickly
so easily, so willingly.

It'a this thick head which descends
almost possible to move
to see, feel the silence, the loneliness.

Lord?
This is the block I can't move;
have many directions, many loose ends
neither the strength nor confidence to complete, start.

Like the blank page
needing a brilliant first line?
What is your response?

Just start, simple.
Write an outline, notes
then fill in between the lines...
Just write nonsense if need be
But do begin...

Fall still,
or wave your arms about
do something you know is silly
pull a face
laugh at the obstacle
and start
one line at a time

--- a cake is eaten
one mouthful at a time.

Break it into smaller parts
reward and encourage often.

(smile, it is getting better Lord)

So,
what shall we do when this block arises?

Stand still, remember Me
I come not to judge
but to commend.
I adore all stumbling steps to reach Me.
Know I stand with you
Sometimes I stand back
but let go and let Me.

You don't have to do anything
just remember Me
follow My guiding hand
Listen and obey.

and if I turn away?

Ah, don't judge
acknowledge, apologise even
but give no further attention
- I have already forgotten.

Return again
Still, whole, pure, perfect, complete.
I am waiting.
Ah, see, Here I Am!

Now, let's go
you and I
and conquer faltering hearts.

There is still time.

Relax
remap
let go all results
and follow Me.


And so I laugh in the face of temptation
my husband plays the guitar
my sons squirt waterguns
and it ain't so serious again.

Bless
Thank you Lord!

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